Oh. My. Goodness... Oh, MY goodness!!!
I cannot apologise enough, it's been about 6 weeks now since I've squeezed in some time to do a blog post!
*Bad SK
(slaps wrist)
But, I'm back, hopefully once a week, but life does get in the way sometimes and it can be so hard to fit it all in! I'm here now to give you my excuses and that right there, gave me my next blog post, life for me at the present.
Who doesn't want a little life blog post now and again? I don't really know where this is going to go, so bare with me in my keyboard rants, as it may well just turn into me blabbing on and word vomiting everything onto this screen...
Just after my birthday, I was offered a promotion in my job *cheers*. Over the actual moon, I accepted... Little did I know those extra 7.5 hours a week would take up a lot of my time outside of work as well. Not in a bad way, because I LOVE my job, I'm now the Account Manager for a Major, Global Cosmetics house, some of you who know me, will know where, but I like to keep it to my personal profiles, as my business, YouTube and blog are separate from this, and are my own views, not that of my employer. But, my employer is AWESOME!
I haven't been happy in a job in YEARS, like for real, this is probably the happiest I've been in a long time, over the years, my husband and I have struggled to find what we want to actually do with our lives, apart from knowing we wanted to be with each other, we didn't really know where else we wanted to go from there, career wise that is! And finally we're both getting somewhere now, I feel like its our time to be successful and Happy.
We've lost friends over the years in the process of finding our happiness, keeping those who are true and not judgemental/avoiding any keeping up with the jones' situation. I had to pull the pin. Not to be immature, but I just had enough, have you ever just gone out with a group of people that made you feel so shit, like real shit on the bottom of their shoe? That was them. The worst thing about them was the fact that I once loved them. I went through university with them all, did everything with them, for them, grandparents died, I was there for them, and when my grandfather died, I got one text message from one boy. No one else cared. Hard times make you realise when a friendship is one sided, had it always been like this but I was too drunk at Uni to notice?? LOL It was a competition, why should there be competition with friends? like, there shouldn't be! One girl got her nose out of joint because we got engaged before she did.
FOR REALS THOUGH...
Her response was... 'oh, we didn't think you guys had any savings'... *Slams on breaks.
ARE YOU SHITTING ME??? WTF are you discussing my bank account for?
A. none of your business.
B. Our account was and is perfect thank you much.
C. NONE OF YOUR Business.
We'd get the odd invite to go out, then it got to the stage they'd 'forget' to invite us, 'such a big group, its easy to leave someone out'... AYE. LOL... So as you do, when you're done, and made feel like shit, I just said, no, that's it. I deleted them from my life. The thing is, if that was someone I actually cared about, I'd call them, ask what was wrong, make amends. Not one of them contacted us ever again. Nothing was said, no fall out, no argument, we all went to a party, they were being rude, ignorant, arrogant, and I just looked as Chris and said, this isn't my scene, I'm done. And he said, 'me too'.
So I hit the remove button. And that was literally it.
I couldn't give a rats ass, I'd say hello to everyone in the street, but not one will look as us now. As if we've done something wrong. It's funny isn't it, how your best friends can become strangers so fast like that.. I haven't thought about that in a long time, but thanks to facebook flashbacks, I know this was about 2 years ago.*laugh face.
SO, yes, friends come and go, but family, friends, my newish ;) husband, my baby bear (lily the dog) and my business, career that I'm totally in LOVE with and obsessed with, is what I'm really here to tell you all about... Not a distant memory, but how things have changed from where I was there, to where I am now is actually miles and miles!
I'm SO passionate about what I do, the products I sell, Make Up in general, I literally eat, sleep and breathe it. I don't think I'll ever get tired of it... but I definitely notice it annoying the people around me. for one, my phone never stops, which is UNREAL for me, not for the friend I'm on a coffee date with, my family, my husband, or for my little baby lily (my dog) who wants to go for a Wahh (we can't say the word she goes NUTS).. I have over 3k on facebook in little over a year, wonder can I get 3k more by next year???
That's my problem... I'm addicted. I keep pushing myself, I watch Youtube, I read everything, I practice and go to masterclass, and spend SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much money to try and better myself, my career, up my skills. It's really, really draining. I'd say wouldn't change it for the world, but I'd make more time in the day, the week, month, and year. I just need to find a balance I think, because I really can't live life looking at my screens. I haven't had time or taken the time on myself really at all. Since my wedding last year, I've gained almost half of the weight back that I had lost, because I'd rather find out what the next trend is and stay up all night on google then go to bed at a decent hour and get up early for a run.. LOL run. ew.
But really, balance is KEY. it's really sad to think by staring at a phone, business page on Facebook etc how much of the world you are missing, as I always explain to the husband, If I want to be successful this is what I have to do in this digital age. They say you should post 3 to 5 different selfies on Instagram a day. I cant do my make up 5 different ways a day?!!? Also that's such a waste of product!!! But I don't just do it for my business now, I do it for my actual everyday job too.. I freelance when I can around my day job, but I also take clients and do make up everyday there, people know this so I'm constantly messaging trying to organise myself, and my diary at home and it can all be a bit *AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!*
sometimes...
And Not to mention, this industry Is SO bitchy, and so competitive, its really nasty sometimes... I've never had anything personally done to me, apart from being copied, lets be real though, it's a compliment when someone does that, it means you're doing something right, and there's loads of mua's out there that I get inspo from, the difference with is I actually take the time to credit that MUA for giving me the inspo for said look... Didn't think I could finish this paragraph without a little dig haha. But really, there is SO much cyber fighting, and facebook wars between make up artists, I get the popcorn out and read every single comment to be fair like, but it is SO shockingly immature, and AWFUL for business... WHY do they do it? Stop, you're all beautiful, talented ladies. Paint some faces, shut up and enjoy this thriving industry! You do not have to compare yourselves to another girl or guy in this WORLD. There is enough business out there for us all! Like, as if people actually fall out with people over being jealous at seeing their success? BOKE (or if you're Not Northern Irish - Vomit).
Wise. up.
ANYWAY...
Back to this balance thing... I'm going to start making more use of my free time, breaks, lunches, etc to blog and edit my videos. That way I can come home, finish off clients and have to family time, go for a walk, get myself back to it! As much as I want to be successful, have my Skillzz up to scratch, I also don't want to miss any opportunities to live, and enjoy life. Because if what they say is true, and you only live once, well frig, I'm already 26 and I certainly don't know where those 26 years came from, so God only knows how fast the next 26 will go... And that SCARES the life out of me. SO, if its possible for me to find the balance, to be successful in my current career, my business from home, having myself in the physical shape I want and having time with my family where they aren't shouting at me for doing work, aka be successful and have a life, I'll be flying...
Now to quote one of my favourite chick flicks..
The Devil Wears Prada.
"Andrea: My personal life is falling apart.
Nigel: That's what happens when you start doing well at work. Let
me know when your entire life goes up in smoke, then it's time for a
promotion."
Again, apologies for my rantings, but I hope they were at least a bit of crack for your day!
- l o v e -
SK
xx
